Lacan and happiness

So I am now reading Lacan. And while I haven't read enough to know whether what I am about to say is inherent in or already part of Lacanian psychoanalysis, I will say that, for me, it certainly seems to be a natural corollary to it.

And that is:

Happiness is the annihilation of the self as subject.

By "subject" here, I mean subject in all of it's multifarious senses: the linguistic subject created by the inside/outside division of self-predication, the fleeting ghost-like experiential subject of self-awareness, the lacanian split (or barred) subject as precipitate or breach, as a noun-ified-signification/signifier-complex entity, and yet also as a verb/process.

Happiness is fleeting because it exists only as a lacuna between the subject as chooser and the subject as self-perceiving understander. The act of choosing may not be conscious, nor must the subject exist temporally or logically at the moment of choosing. However, in the role of "understander" the mind is self aware of the process whereby the subject is recognized to be, retroactively & ex post facto, the source of the positive choice that created the causal condition(s) in which self-annihilation was possible. This entails, in Lacanian terms (I am guessing) the traversal of fantasy via the relation between the symbolization of the choice as an act and it's relation to the subject-less experience that was perceived after-the-fact as happiness. Happiness can be viewed as the signifierization of the Lacanian "Real" leaking into the symbolic order - but like quantum velocity or position, it doesn't exist until AFTER the measurement has been made, violently forcing it into the symbolic order.

Via the traversal, happiness can encompass a broad range of self-reported positive human experiences; from the satisfaction of reflecting on the successful accomplishment of complex life goals and also the simple decision to focus on warm pleasurable sensation of wind blowing on a spring day, etc...

When the self is annihilated the illusion of peace is created after the fact. It is, of course, a false peace, as it is transitory and ridiculously unstable.

Which brings me to the point... there is a broad family of self-annihilation seeking behavior, of which happiness-seeking is only one relative. People say they want happiness, when what they really want is the pleasure of self-annihilation. This accounts for the seemingly contradictory behavior of people and their paradoxical choices on a day to day basis. The alcoholic who loves hugging his girlfriend while drunk, knowing she is repulsed. The workaholic who won't make time for her boyfriend even though he brings her happiness. The environmental sustainability expert that creates superfluous poly-amorous relationships that she is incapable of sustaining. The spiritual tourist visiting the idea of meditation without real effort exerted to achieve the focus necessary. The decisions and behaviors and internal monologues all seem contradictory and competitive, when really they are all just decentralized expressions of the same pursuit.

And if people think that the goal of life is happiness, and happiness is really just a first name for a family whose last name is self-annihilation, perhaps one of the siblings, parents or cousins might be a better and more efficient path to get there.